why me? 1/2 |
I may not bee as everyone else here,
I sit for myself at the edge of the school,
on the path of grass far away from all of the rules.
I am breaking one of them,
as I sit here..
" Do not intend of siting at the path of grass behind the school,
it is beyond the schools property, and it is forbidden to leave it. " That is what they said
when I started a new life here, at this home for girls.
I live at the same place I go to school, in a dorm next to the main classroom,
and that sucks.
But in this little, this tiny, path, they leave me alone,
no one comes to get me, because they know I wont listen,
and they are afraid to get caught.
I have never been caught, except for when I called for a teacher,
when I saw something in the bushes who attacked me later on.
She saved me from that thing, but I still got a time at the principal, and then the detention
room...
Ah.. Now the school bell is ringing in, I should go back so that they wont understand I am here again.
" And were have you been now? " Everyone asks those silly questions like if they had no idea.
But I just ignore them, cause I have no intention of answering all of their stupid..
" Alice, come here you little bastard! "
"Who called me?
Oh, she? "
" Oh, gimme a break would you? " She throws me up against the wall,
I cant breath.. But even if I want to get saved, I will not show her I am weak!
" You did just leave me like that.. Again! " She let go of me and then I hit her on the arm.
" Blame yourself for not letting me help you.. " Over there.. Is that..?
" Sorry, I have to go. " I get a chance to run away now..
" HEY, CAROLINE! " Caroline turns her head this way!
But what is she.. She is going!?
" Hey, wait! she cant hear me? "
Okay, screw this. I dont wanna chase around after her anymore, even if she is the one
who let me down before.
When I turn around, a hand smack my face. It hurts..
" What the hell do you think you are doing!? You cant just dump me again for some spoiled brat,
what happened to you and me!? "
Its no use, I have to talk to her about this once and for all.
" Hey, listen now, and listen very carefully! There was never something with you and me ,
and it is never going to be. I have no idea of how you got the idea that we were dating or something like that,
but that is your imagination, cause I can just see you as a friend or classmate,
nothing else! So let me just walk away, and start over with someone else, that I love. "
She stares at me, she is angry and upset, I know what I said can be a little harsh,
but she need to hear it from me, she have to let me go once and for all...
" you are an idiot and I wish I had never even met you, you... "
" You cant even come up with a filthy nickname for me? That is just ridiculous. "
One of her friends hit me at the ear, and that is were it hurts the most.
" Fuck you! Come on hun, let us go somewere else. "
I hate this place, I hate the persons and I hate the environment.
Skip this class, go to the path of grass and feel a little bit free.
As I sit here, I can hear birds sing, squirrels who runs over the leafs,
and the bell who shows that the lesson is over. I sit here alone...
And that is no fun.
I think back at my old school, a painful memory comes up and I tries to
throw it away.
" Yeah, Alice, you should join too! "
She hit me light at my arm.
" You really think so? The school council? Really? "
" Hell yeah! You should become president! That would be perfect,
cause you think as a free bird, you have already seen the world over and there is not many
people who knows what you know. It is like you are the smartest girl here! "
Her kind smile convinces me, and I nod.
" If you think I can do it.. Then I will try.. "
That laugh, it makes me happy.
" good, then let us go to the class. Promise me you wont skip any more classes now,
be a good girl. "
I promised her, I promised the girl I was so totally in love with.. A thing I can not do...
" Hey, Alice? " Someone stands behind me, someone wants to talk to talk to me.
" Caroline, what are you doing here? You run away from me all of the time, and I am sick of it.
So why did you come here now? "
I can hear that she is holding back some tears.
" I am sorry, Alice. It is just that I.. I cant really.. I dont have an answer to your question. "
This is annoying, I think I will go back to my room instead.
" It is not a hard question to answer, and I have been given you lots and lots of time, and now you wont even talk to me. "
She tries to say something, but her tears starts to fall.
" I dont need an answer any longer, cause I am not ready to wait another six months.
Excuse me, I am going now. "
As I walk, I can hear her gasping for air, she cries so much that she cant even breath.
Then she calls my name...
" Alice, Alice! Wait, please! Dont.. "
Too late now, i dont want to be betrayed or anything again, so it is a good thing you havent answered yet,
cayse I have taken back what I asked you, just like I did the last time...
" D-do you want to be together with me? "
It does just bring old memories back.
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