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The black derisive water embrace me and all the air in my lungs
wither away in the darkness.
My life is passing by and I can see all the mistakes I've ever done.
The pain when I remember your face is indescribable and I close my eyes to
avoid all the sense of guilt that lives in my almost dead mentality.
And,how did this happen?
My name is Jack,I was fifteen when this happened and I was on my way home from my ex-girlfriend Simone,
I did break up with her and she got aggressive.
We had a fight,she really wanted to know why I did this to her.
And the only explanation I had was "I'm depressed."
She said she'd help me,if I only told her,I said no and she started screaming.
And,now,you probably want to know why I am that depressed that not even my girlfriend could help me;
Three weeks before:
"You can't do anything! your worthless..don't you know that,sucker?!"
yelled the boy in the green jacket before he hit me in my face with his fist.
I said nothing.
"We already know that you're gay..we've seen how you've been looking at us..it's gross!"
I didn't even try to tell him that I've got a Girlfriend, Would that make any difference?
I gasped for air when the other boy with long,dark hair kicked me in the stomach.
"Just because I've got make up and taight jeans,I have to be gay." I thought,when
the first boy laughed at me and called me gay again.
"Why would I care?" I whispered derisive and the two boys stopped and stared at me with eyes full of hate.
"Why you would care?..we can't let a gay live..you know,you're dangerous for the village." The-green-jacket-boy said and
smiled at his long haired friend.
"Well..we'll not kill you today,we heard about your girlfriend..you have to tell her that she can't call you in heaven first." the long-haired boy said,and after they had hit me
a little bit more,the walked away and left me,half dead in the park
"Oh crap!" I said with broken voice when I noticed that my new t-shirt were dirty and had a new,nice hole in the back.
I walked home slowly and gasped for air everytime it hurted like thousands of knifes in my stomach.
When I oppened the door my mother ran to the door and gave me a bone-crusher-hug and I finaly started to cry.
"Who did this to you?" she whispered and I saw the sudden tears in her eyes.
"Some..guys.." I answered and tried to avoid her raven gaze.
Two Weeks earlier;
"I don't care about WHY you're late home..you can't mess around like that just because your mother isn't here watching you!" My dad screamed before he threw the chair at me.
It did hit my head,and fortunately I couldn't feel the rest of the punishment.
When I woke up I lay in my bed with a terrible headache as only company.
It is always like this.
One week earlier;
"Jack..why do you avoid me..your girlfriend!"
Simona yelled and threw my "I'm-So-Sorry" teddybear at me,I catched it and tried to smile at her,
"Come on..Simona..you know I have a lot of things to think about.."
"Do I? Like what , for example?" She said and stared at her feets.
"I..don't want to talk about it." I whispered and took a quick step back when she finaly stared at med.
"You never want to talk about it!What it is,top secret?" she said derisive and I walked out through the door with
the teddybear I just bought her in my arms.
to be continued...
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| Kommentarer | | blackgirl - 25 mar 09 - 17:25 | | den e bra |
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